13/08/2014

Rubber & Soul



One of my favourite norwegian singers...
Ane Brun

I really love this song
feat. by Teitur

Have a listen

And when we are talking music, Fever Ray by Fever Ray is also GREAT

 

12/08/2014

32/52

A portrait of my daughter, once a week, every week in 2014


Sara is playing around with makeup these days, and really like black lipstick. 
I told her no way she gets to go out the door looking like that, but that I could try to take a couple of cool photographs of her. 
And these are the result


Favs


Linking up with Jodi and Living Arrows




09/08/2014

Finding my Way



Going through life altering changes can be pretty hard. Especially when everything you've planned for and dreamt of, get ripped from your hands, and there's nothing you can do about it. In those moments, many probably just wanna lay down in fetal position and cry. 
I'm not that type of person. 

When life kick you in the stomach, you have the opportunity to take a good hard look at yourself, the way you live and your goals. It's a great time for growth and change. And that's how I see things, that's what I try to do. Laying down crying and cursing the world gets you nowhere!

I'm not saying there have been just smiles and fun the last couple of months. 

I've gone through days in shock, days in panic, days of share grief. It's taken me a long time to delete all the files on my computer with baby plans, or albums with babythings/babyclothes/babyrooms which I've been saving over the last two years. I think that was the hardest part for me in general, letting go of the dreams of another child. Because when I suddenly was alone, and had time to think things over I quickly realised HE wasn't the right man for me... And then of course, he wouldn't be the right man to have a child with, but getting out of that baby bubble I've been in for so long was more than difficult. 

But, as I said. I can't just lay down. So I've spent these months changing the way I think. I'm trying to focus on how great it is to have ONE child, a almost grown up child. A child who can get all my time and energy. But also, since she's a teen, this gives me as a mother a lot more freedom. Freedom to get a job with late hours now and then. Freedom to get out with the girls and drink some wine. Freedom to lay in bed as long as I want. And there is so much fun things we can do together... 

It's also been pretty great getting rid of everything we owned, and start over in a different town. 
Not only with regards to material things, or the way I think, but also the way we eat!!! 
During my IVF treatments I've been focusing on healthy food, but even more so now. 

A big part of IVF treatments is pushing the body full of hormones, and mine didn't handle that very well. 
I couldn't even handle birth control when I was young (my doctor gave me a hormone shot/depo-provera when I was 17, and I lost my period for over a year and gained 30 kg over 4 months), so I knew it was a pretty good chance that my body would react the same way to the IVF treatments. I didn't gain as much this time, but enough to not feel beautiful in my own skin. Enough to not be healthy. Enough to not fit my clothes... 

So now I'm having a lot of fun with food. Choosing healthy food. Baking my own bread. Making everything from scratch. And I've been looking into exercise as well. To find something I could try out. And I've landed on yoga! I know, some of you might think: Omg, is she going to turn all healthy yoga hippie on us now, and I can tell you - YES I AM! hahaha... I'm in awe when I see the body control people who've been training yoga have. It is  b e a u t i f u l  to watch. Also, I'm drawn to this body/mind/soul aspect of it all. Learning to breathe. Learning to be in the now.

So I did my very first yoga session this morning... 
I jumped out of bed, did my yoga and then had a cup of coffee out in the sun after! And it felt so good. Ok, I was not great. It was actually pretty heavy for me. My wrists hurt, and keeping my back the right way (head over heart over pelvic) was hard too. But I got through it, and it was a good feeling to have done some sort of exercise before breakfast. And yes, I want to train at home in the beginning. Then later on, when my body is a little more used to it, and I feel I can more about yoga I will probably attend some classes. So I spent some time over at youtube, until I found a channel I enjoyed. Which turned out to be yoga with Adriene. The way she explain works for me, she also have a lot of different videos to choose from. But the one I'm starting with is of course yoga for complete beginners.    
  
So. This is where I am at the moment. Changing the way I think. Changing the way I eat. Trying out yoga. Making a home for us. And trying to get a new job. The road here has not been easy, but there can be beauty in change guys, and I will continue standing up, with a huge smile on my face!

Isn't she beautiful? I hope some day, I can be just as great!
She also write a blog about the naturehouse ( a small house built inside a dome) she and her man built! 
It's one of a kind


 

08/08/2014

STILLS





The days are passing by in a blur of painting, new darker floors, trying out walldecor, several wine-evenings and good homemade food. 
I'm tired, but are having the best time ever... 

And these are just a few stills as of lately


02/08/2014

31/52

A portrait of my daughter, once a week, every week in 2014


If you are living with a teen, you know they can be angels one minute, and something else the next.
Lucky for me
the angel appears more often in this house
and today I caught her on camera


Favs



Linking up with Jodi and Living Arrows as always


29/07/2014

Perfect for Two



Just peeking in real fast before I start painting the bedroom.

Sara was sleeping in this morning, and I had my first coffee at our tiny kitchen table by myself. 
We were finally done with that space late last night, and when the sun came through the windows this morning, I just had to snap a couple of shots with my phone. A table perfect for two. 
Or just one, like earlier today.  

InLoveWithOurNewHome 


27/07/2014

It's time

5 months ago I did this list. When I look back on it now, I can see the depression seep through my sentences. 5 months is not a long time, but oh, a lot have happened since then. It almost feels like a lifetime ago. So it's time to do it again

I'm taking stock


Making : a tiny, but cosy home for me and my daughter
Cooking : easy healthy meals
Drinking : coffee, black 
Reading: nothing really, other than blogs ofc
Wanting: a coffee-table
Looking: @ pictures. On interiorblogs, pinterest and IG
Playing: music while painting. Love this one 
Wasting: very little
Sewing: the answer to this will probably always be nothing
Wishing: the summer will hang around for a long time
Enjoying: Life as it is, right now
Waiting: for the paint to dry
Liking: this  b e a u t i f u l  home
Wondering: about everything and nothing
Loving: being single
Hoping: no gorgeous men will cross my path, so I can stay single for a very long time. hahaha.... 
Marvelling: over how much things change in such little time
Needing: nothing at the moment. I'm content! And it feels good.
Smelling: seabutter and warm vanilla
Wearing: oversized black, grey and white - most of the time.
Following: a lot of feeds over at IG
Noticing: everything fall into place
Knowing: him leaving the relationship was the right thing to do
Thinking: I should have had the balls to do it myself a long time ago
Bookmarking: this cute post over at Bohemian Diesel
Opening: my heart to new people
Giggling: several times every day
Feeling: this was the right move for us. Feeling happy... 



30/52

A portrait of my daughter, once a week, every week in 2014


When Sara saw the apartment for the first time, empty - yellow and small, she wasn't feeling too great about it. 
She was more like "this is not going to be cosy"... 
But now we are all moved in, and even tho we don't have much - the rug, plants and couch instantly made the apartment more snug and cute. And for the last two days, we've been painting like crazy, turning this tiny place all white and gorgeous. 

To be honest, Sara hasn't been much help in that area, she's more into painting herself than the wall - 
I just had to laugh when I saw this, and send her on her way... 
But thanks for the tiny bit you did paint   

There is still a lot of work to be done here... But oh boy, it will be so nice when we/well - I am done. 


Linking up with Jodi and Living Arrows


22/07/2014

SNIPPETS



Just a few pics from today. 

We've managed to move in some of the things we now own. 
A bed and washingmachine will be arriving tomorrow. We are still missing a fridge, but hey! 
I can survive on coffee for a long time? Eh. 

1. The cutest wooden bowl I bought at Palma. Seriously! I'm in love. I've been petting it all day
2. The best rug ever, from bohus, white couch, blanket and jungle
3. Another bowl and cups, also from bohus 
4. The view from the kitchen window
5. A corner of the livingroom, door leading to the bedroom. And yes, I am really aming for a jungle!

There might be a little makeover going on soon. I hope I get to paint everything white. Time will tell. 
But overall - I love this cute little space. And more pictures will come later! 


ALONE



When I was younger I wanted people around me all the time. 
I wanted people to visit me, if they couldn't I would visit them - And if I knew I had a night coming up without Sara, I had to plan something to do - perhaps drink - and figure out who I could socialise with. Because being alone, God damn, how boring was that? 
Alone? No way! 

But something changed in my late 20's. The need to have people around me all the time slowly went away, I started to love my own company, the silence and the calm. I became calm, finally. If I had a weekend without Sara, I started spending it home instead of going out. Just enjoying the easy slow mornings and even more slow evenings. I loved it. 

From then on and out, being alone when I want to, became important to me.

For the last month Sara and I have been refuges, or nicely told: on a very long summer vacation.
We've been living with friends, family, on hotels, travelling with airplanes, cars and boats. 
We've been social times 10, all day - every day.
I get tired just thinking about it. 

Today we got the keys to our new apartment. And I look forward to move in, to throw my feet on the table and just settle down. Being with friends and family, being social, going on vacations is all fine and dandy - 

but to come home, isn't that the best part of it all?! 



21/07/2014

29/52

A portrait of my daughter, once a week, every week in 2014


Overtired at the beach
Laughed until she cried
Time to go home
It was late

Haven't had time to go through all the photos from this weeks link ups, also I've been to busy to comment like I usually do. Later this week I'm sure things will calm down a bit over here, and we can start getting into our normal routines. It will be nice.

Linking up with Jodi and Living Arrows

18/07/2014

FINALLY



As some of you know, I recently started sharing some pictures over at instagram. 
But it was the same pictures you could find here on the blog. 
Boring

You see, me and Sara have been timesharing one phone for over a year
A broken phone
Or really, A phone with a broken camera

Everyone have been ranting about instagram for years, but I never really got into it
I couldn't. Until now

Yesterday I bought a new phone
And I didn't get much sleep
Because I ended up exploring feeds, and couldn't for my life put my phone down

I'm sooo behind, but oh my - I LOVE instagram! 

*Giggle*

And I will from now on, share a lot of pictures over there, which will not be found here
So if you want to see what we are up to outside of the blog, or maybe you are wondering what the story is behind the picture above? 
Then - head over to my feed  @sagabysteinsdotter

If you know of some beautiful feeds I SHOULD follow, let me know

PS. And how great is it, that I don't NEED to always have my big camera with me everywhere


13/07/2014

LOVE



my new shoes. I travelled up here with my winter boots only. Bad idea! So needed something light for these hot days. And in the second photo, Sara is wearing my kimono, from H&M. 

I could see why you would be fooled... But this is not Greece, it's Lofoten, Norway 



Grey




The most beautiful sunny day transformed into the most beautiful foggy night
grey 

the smell. the silence. the softness.
love

and this is love too



12/07/2014

28/52

A portrait of my daughter, once a week, every week, in 2014


Week 28 was all about family + having a good time... 
And we went to the most beautiful beach in Norway, The Haukeland beach.. 
As always, Sara was playing around, making shapes and art with her body and I managed to snap this gorgeous shot of her. 

Loving the portraits from both Hello Suzy & Monkey and Squirrel this week


Linking up with Jodi and Living Arrows


10/07/2014

This Morning



We are staying at my aunt's house while we are visiting Lofoten. 
The house is an old converted barn, and it's filled with everything retro.... But I love old cute chairs, and the coffee is good


09/07/2014

LIFE


Sometimes people around you won't understand your journey. They don't need too, it's not for them

06/07/2014

The little Things



I am really loving this "starting over" project of mine 
Having nothing, and then slowly gather the things I need and want. Being selective 
Really think things through before buying, and appreciate the items I get 
Loving it 

My plan is to get hold of as much cheap thrifted furniture as possible. I'm talking things like dining table, couch and refrigerator and give them a make over. Probably a bed as well, but I will for sure buy a new top mattress.... Everything else, the small stuff, will be carefully picked out. I don't want to fill my new home from top to bottom. And the little I buy, I try to find in natural materials with an organic feel when it comes to color and texture... 

Everything in these pictures I got from Åhlens, except the bowl and my new little friend
they I got at kremmerhuset 
Isn't he cute? all tho - not natural

To read more about how we ended up with this "starting over" project
you can have a look at these posts

&

Did I mention I'm sooo loving this?

05/07/2014

27/52

A portrait of my daughter, once a week, every week, in 2014



Week 27 was the week we came home! 
The flight up was terrible due to rain and wind, but today the sun smiled and the sea sang the most beautiful song. 
For a moment there, we just sat and enjoyed the view and it was like our hearts were beating just a little bit slower. 
We had arrived

I am really loving these  g o r g e o u s  photos over at Wendieland this week!!! 


Linking up with Jodi and Living Arrows as always


02/07/2014

Dead Meat



Right now I'm really really sick. The flu hit me hard a couple of days ago. So I'm just laying here on the couch, trying to gather strength to get on the airplane tomorrow with the teen, our luggage and Coco the cat. Have you ever been flying while having the flu and fever? I haven't, but it doesn't sound nice!

If you have any tips that can help me get well faster, please share
because we have so much to do the following weeks, and right now I'm just dead meat
  
I'm too beat to even read blogs, and that NEVER happens